TRAGEDY

I merely stayed home these days, only one day out with some of my old friends. Few we talked, for the differences, we can sadly say the gap, among us became evident, which has always been my destiny. Just someone come, someone else leave, and someone else never contact any more.
It doesn't feel fine during the begining of new year, which people superstitiously regard as the forecast of an unlucky year. Whatever, things cannot be worse for me these segments recently. I even prepared to beat one of my drunk relatives who shouted at my parents tonight. I ought to be more powerful, more strengthern, wealthier and smarter. Remember the Obama's words - change!
Life's taught me much than I expected, including benign and evil. I've been a good one for too long a period, why not try the reverse one.

Still 10 hrs left before boarding, I am unexpectedly excited, driven by the eagerness of returning.
Let us prey it be fine, at least not rain till my landing.

Easy FM channel is so cute, especially Feiyu Show, which I regularly listen to every dull and repeated morning. So cute are the two hosts.

19:00pm Feb. 6th, 2010
As I got above from subway, I found it snowed, which had been the third one since the passed winter in 2009, and just one hour before, I was still hanging around inside Xinzhongguan with a bag of stuff to be brought home, when, I remembered definitely, it was clear outside. What was amazed is that, during mere a short trip underground, the world had changed at all. Small crystalline bit of snowflakes floating in the dark cloudy sky, reflecting dim rays of streetlight, leaving a illusion of dizzy world covered with a thin layer of white cozy outwear.

19:30pm Feb.6th, 2010
Doom spread to my aged laptop, which crashed down after a relatively stumbling period with unexpected manner. Finally, it welcomed the destined fate. With it rubbing salt on my wound, the poor disc driver of the laptop was dying, letting out groans after groans while checking the setup disc. I was too sleepy and tired to stay up with the struggling installation of system.
After waken up by the sudden getting-up alarm, I desperately found the installation terminated.

18:00pm Feb.7th, 2010
I bought one bottle of grape wine, some barbecued chicken and two pieces of pork legs, heading to SX's. The time by arriving, it had been nearly one whole day I didn't take anything, that I crawled along and became a dead food seeker.
It was of fun to din at the restaurant with our taking wine and food, which made the waitress speechless.
We talked much, from university campus life to the memory of primary school, from love to family, and came up with the common view that every body's been mature.

The corporation today to communicate with is Landray, which has been the constant partner with IBM and enjoys a high reputation in IT service at home, according to their self-introduction. In other words, we can regard it as a large agent of IBM in China.
What the most significant different between these two solution providers comes from the respective background of their own, as is easy to figure out that Landray is an native one and IBM is not. Hence they cope with our needs in obvious opposite ways. IBM focus more on the total project, asking questions they interested in, proposing some systemetic theories which sounds perfect but confusion; they are truely professional but uneasy to be get close with. In contrast, Landray seems not concentrated on the documents we provided ahead of time, partly because they have aggregated numerous successful cases at home, and consequently, they have already had one basic but detailed solution with sample to extend the reliability of their proposition.
It is hard for me to justify who is better. Emotionally and personally I preferred IBM, which is just my style, and I do not deny, however, that, Landray is much more persuasive. After all, people on our own side delivers a deeper understanding of the real situation of huge enterprises belonging to the state.
Time is insufficient for the both players to finish their homework, so let us just stand by and see what will happen finally.

The moment I was struggling to get up in the dark, some inspiration occurred to me, so was born the lyric as following:

Love Won't Be Delayed

Hey, are you OK?
I asked my pale face.
No the first time overtaken,
May all of things is what I have mistaken.

Hopefully I preyed,
but love never came.
No one's to be blamed,
cause it is all my fault to fall in love so easily.

The happiness has turned to pain,
I myself was left alone to taste.
The memories have faded away,
there's no excuse for me to stay

Love won't decay,
but heart do easily break.
Love won't be delayed,
that is all about my fate.

PS: I just feel all right, and it is all about the initiative impulse for me to write a poem or a song, to prove I haven't lose such capability. That's all.